When I first heard about this virus, I thought it was going to be just another MERS or SARS. These effected some people in the US but not many and were wildly overhyped by the media. That was about a month ago. Fast forward to today, we are under a stay at home order until at least April 3 and possibly longer, school (and my job) never returned from spring break and could possibly be cancelled for the remainder of the year, people are buying supplies like the apocalypse is coming, and health officials are saying it’s about to get a lot worse. It’s a very surreal experience!
To lighten the mood in my household a little, I came up with 3 theories as to why this is happening. Fair warning, they get pretty crazy but we have actually discussed these at length in my family XD
1. I have been in a horrible accident and am actually laying in a hospital bed dreaming all this. My brain has concocted this reality to keep me in a coma until I heal. When I wake up, I’m going to have one hell of a story to tell.
2. Someone finally invented a time machine and went back in time. While there, they killed a spider and now we are all experiencing the ‘butterfly effect’ from their action. In other words, this is an alternate reality.
3. We live in the matrix and NEO pissed off the aliens. So they are killing off a percentage of people as a punishment to him. I mean this one has some merit because you have to admit, the food here is pretty darn good.
(Be sure to share your theories in the comments)
Living with anxiety and being an introvert, this lockdown is actually quite freeing for me. While I’m still trying to wrap my head around everything that is happening, I find myself hoping it doesn’t end. Please understand I don’t want people to die, that is not even close to what I’m saying. Everyone else is distraught about having to stay at home, work from home, and only leave for essential services. I’m sitting in my house happy as a lark. This is the ultimate peace for me. I don’t have to interact with people. I don’t have to put on my ‘normal’ mask and go to work each day. I can be me. I leave my house on my terms. I interact with others on my terms. My work is done by video chat from the comfort of my home. Timelines are pretty much gone. I can do my work without feeling like I’m missing something. I can be comfortable and feel at ease 100% of the time. This is my ultimate zen.
So while everyone I know and the media are freaking out about having to stay “cooped up at home,” I’m over here praying that it continues for just a while longer. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE my job. I miss all my kids I’m not seeing daily. I do miss the routine and helping others. I just don’t miss the anxiety I feel each day to be ‘normal’ and to fit in to society’s box. Not having those expectations is especially freeing for someone with autism.